DEAD DINOSAUR

CAUGHT

2011-07-20T22:57:00.000-07:00

THEY THINK THEY'VE GOT YOU ON THE RUN

THEY HAVE CAUGHT THEMSELVES A MADMAN

FOR A LITTLE FUN

THEY'VE GOT YOU LYING THERE

PULLING OUT YEARS OF TEETH AND HONEST GOLD

FROM EMPTY LUNGS

"A REAL MAN ON HIS BACK." THEY SAY

"WE'VE GOT THIS MADMAN ON THE RUN."

WE LIVE IN A FUTURE CITY

YOUR BODY IS LIKE MINE

I HAVE A MAP WITH YOUR DESTINATION

I HAVE THE ABILITY TO GET WHAT I WANT

THE HIGH RISE / THE 65TH FLOOR

I KNOW HOW TO FIX YOU

I KNOW WHERE TO FIND YOU

IT'S HARDER TO FALL

THAN IT IS TO CLIMB TO THE TOP

BUT FOR ALL OF THESE FUTURE EMBRACES

SOMEONE FORGOT WHAT IT MEANS

TO BE EVERYTHING TO SOMEONE

WITHOUT HAVING THE HEART TO STOP

WITHOUT HAVING A HEART THAT WON'T EVER STOP

WITHOUT HAVING A HEART THAT TONIGHT

WILL NOT STOP

ABSOLUTES

2011-06-10T21:23:00.000-07:00

EVERY YEAR EVERY THING IS LOST
AND A LITTLE GAINED

I GIVE AWAY MORE THAN I HAVE TO TAKE
MY HEART SLOWING AND MY BLOOD POOLING, ROTTING, SPOILING
LEAVING EVERY GOOD THING I DO
TO THE CROWS
TO THE WORMS
TO THE FLESH
TO ALWAYS MATTER LESS
TO THE ONES I MEAN THE BEST

TO THE ONES I LOVE THE BEST

I AM RUNNING, BLEEDING, FALLING, DYING, AND BREATHING
FOR YOU

THE ONES I LOVE THE BEST

BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT SO REAL
AS I THINK YOU TO BE
A MOUNTAIN THAT I'VE PILED
PAST THE GATES TO THE BROTHEL YOU CALL HEAVEN
AN OCEAN THAT I'VE SWALLOWED
OF ALL THE EMPTY WORDS YOU'VE SPIT WHILE YOU PROMISE THE MOON

I FEED YOU
TAKE SUCH WONDERFUL CARE OF YOU
BATHE YOU
AND TAKE SUCH WONDERFUL CARE OF YOU

THE ONE I LOVE THE BEST

MAKING EVERY GOOD THING I DO
MATTER MUCH, MUCH LESS
TO ONLY THE ONES I LOVE THE BEST

AND EVERY YEAR WE GROW TOGETHER
SHARING EVERY THING WE OWN TOGETHER
ONLY TO HAVE IT MEAN LESS THAN WHAT IT DID BEFORE

MY HEART, I DIDN'T CREATE YOU
BUT I AM HERE TO TAKE SUCH SPECIAL CARE OF YOU
SO LET'S BEAT A LITTLE MORE
AND BEAT A LITTLE HARDER
LOSING MORE THAN WHAT WE HAVE TO OFFER
FOR THE ONES WE LOVE THE BEST

THE TAKING

2011-06-05T22:05:00.000-07:00

THE CLOUDS ARE SO LOW TONIGHT /
AND IN THE DARKNESS, I CAN ALMOST REACH UP AND GRAB THEM /

AND IN THE DAYLIGHT, EVERYTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE /
I KNOW THAT THOSE CLOUDS ARE TOO FAR AWAY AND SHALLOW /
THAT THEY ONLY EXIST WHERE I CAN'T REACH THEM /
THAT THEY ONLY EXIST TO PROVIDE A LITTLE SHADE FOR ALL MY RUIN /

BUT RIGHT NOW, NEARING THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, I CAN TASTE THEM /
EVERYTHING IS LOWER /
CLOSER /
COMPLETELY POSSIBLE /
WITHIN MY REACH /
WITHIN MY HANDS /
AND ALL MINE /

WHICH WILL ALWAYS BE WHY I FEEL RIGHT AT HOME IN THE DARKEST NIGHT /
BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS MINE /
EVERYTHING IS AROUND ME /
THE WORLD SEEMS TO KNOW ME BETTER AND COMES RIGHT TO ME /
STRUTTING IN, WEARING MIDNIGHT HEELS, BLACK LACE & BLACK LIPSTICK /
AND WE DANCE, BURN, AND DRINK UP THE STARS /
EATING THE IMPOSSIBLE AND TOASTING TO EVERLASTING /

WE LIVE AT NIGHT WHILE SHE IS ALL MINE /
BECOMING EVERYTHING FOR NO ONE /
AND NOTHING FOR EVERYONE /

SO GO ON LIVING IN THE CURELESS DAYLIGHT /
AND I'LL BE HAPPY WITH MY MIDNIGHT MISTRESS, TONITE /

STILL ALIVE

2011-05-18T16:33:00.001-07:00

BREATHING /
LIVING /
SOMEWHAT /
KICKING ON /

I HAVE PLENTY OF THOUGHTS FOR YOU /
MOST OF WHICH YOU WILL NOT APPRECIATE /

BUT WILL BE PLACED HERE NEVERTHELESS /

WAIT A SHORT BIT /
HIDE YOUR TEETH A BIT LONGER /
GO BACK TO SHARPENING YOUR KNIFE /

SO CUTE

2011-02-14T19:56:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THAT YOU ARE SO SENSITIVE /
THAT YOU COULD CHANGE THE WEATHER WITH YOUR EMOTION /
THAT YOU CARE /

I LOVE THAT YOU NEED ME AROUND /
TO PROVE THAT YOU ARE STILL THERE /

I LOVE THAT WHAT MATTERS MOST IS WHAT I HAVE DONE /

THAT A CARELESS GLANCE IS ALL YOU EVER NEED /
TO RESIGN ME AWAY FOREVER AS THE ONE YOU'VE NEVER BEAT /

YOU ARE A COWARD /
AN INGRATE /
A JEALOUS FOOL /
THE ONE I LOVE TO HATE /

A PETTY WASTE OF HANDS AND TEETH /
YOU HAVE NO SKILL /
YOU HAVE NO BITE /

YOU DESERVE THE WHORES OF THIS EARTH /
BECAUSE THE ONES THAT I LOVE /
ARE MEANT FOR BETTER THINGS /

THE ONES I LOVE TODAY /
WILL BE THE ONES I LOVE TOMORROW /
BUT YOU, FOREVER /
WILL BE THE ONE THAT I LOVE TO HATE /

WINTER

2010-12-07T21:01:00.000-08:00

BITTER NIGHTS & SOFT SKIN /
THE SEASON'S EVENING CONSTELLATIONS MEAN MORE TO ME THAN THEY DO TO YOU /
A WARM BREATH THAT I CAN'T SEE, BUT I INHALE /
IT'S COLDER WITH MORE PLACES THAT WE CAN HIDE /
EVERYTHING MOVES SLOWER THAN IT EVER DID BEFORE /
SO SLOW IN FACT, THAT I AM MORE THE PERSON I WAS BEFORE /

SO CHEERS! FOR THE WINTER /
I FEEL MORE LIKE ME /
CHEERS! FOR THE WINTER /
BECAUSE I SNOW ON THE INSIDE /
AS I PLEASE /

2010-08-30T21:27:00.001-07:00

BREASTS

A LESSON IN CONVERSATION

2010-07-28T20:56:00.000-07:00

"HEY, HOW'S IT GOING?"
"GOOD, GOOD. HOW ARE THINGS WITH YOU?"
"NOT BAD. I CAN'T COMPLAIN."
"IT'S SO HOT TODAY!"
"I KNOW, RIGHT?! IT'S LIKE A MILLION DEGREES."
"TOTALLY. IT'S A BEACH DAY."

"HEY, HOW'S IT GOING?"
"I AM WELL. AND HOW ARE YOU?"
"NOT BAD. I CAN'T COMPLAIN."
"REALLY. I'M SURE YOU COULD FIND SOMETHING."
"YEAH, I GUESS SO. IT'S REALLY HOT TODAY."
"YOU SEE? THAT WASN'T SO HARD."
"YEAH, I GUESS."
"THAT'S QUITE A FEW GUESSES. ARE YOU SURE OF ANYTHING?"
"SOME THINGS, YEAH."
"LIKE THE WEATHER."
"I GUESS."
"REALLY?"
"YEAH."

REAL BLOOD

2010-07-26T19:13:00.000-07:00

THE BAND 'KISS' FORMED IN NEW YORK IN 1973 /
BY 1977 THEIR COLLECTIVE PERSONA HAD GROWN SO MUCH THAT THEY WERE MAKING OVER FIFTY MILLION DOLLARS A YEAR IN MERCHANDISE SALES ALONE /
NOT TO BE TAKEN AS CLOWNS OR CONSIDERED AS HAVING FORFEITED MONEY OVER THEIR ATTITUDE, 'KISS' DECIDED TO RELEASE A COMIC BOOK ISSUED IN 1977 BY MARVEL COMICS WITH A BIT OF SAID ATTITUDE /
IN ADDITION TO THE POOLS OF INK THAT WERE USE TO PRINT THE ACTUAL COMIC BOOKS, EACH MEMBER OF 'KISS' DEPOSITED A VIAL OF THEIR PROPER BLOOD WHICH WOULD BE COLLECTIVELY PRINTED AND CIRCULATED AROUND THE WORLD /

POOR

2010-07-19T23:01:00.000-07:00

I AM POOR IN SPIRIT AND HAVE NOTHING MUCH TO SAY
YOU KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I MEAN
I AM LITTLE, I AM QUIET
AND I DON'T REALLY NEED TO SAY ANYTHING AT ALL
BECAUSE YOU CAN SEE IT ON MY FACE

BUT NEVERMIND
PLEASE DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME
I AM EASILY HID AND DON'T CARRY YOUR NAME

PLEASE CARRY ON AND DON'T LET ANYTHING STOP YOU
I MAY BE LITTLE
I MAY NOT MATTER THAT MUCH TO YOU
BUT AS LITTLE AS I MAY
I CAN GIVE THE WORLD TO YOU

I CAN GIVE YOU EVERYTHING YOU WANT
AND NOT BY ANYTHING I HAVE MADE
I'LL JUST STAY BACK HERE
AND WATCH UNDER THE DOOR
WATCHING ALL YOUR DEVILS DANCE IN THE SHADE

YOU SEE IT'S EASY FOR ME
I GIVE AND GIVE
BY NOT DOING A THING

TUCK ME AWAY
FEED ME THE RAIN
I CAN STILL FIT
UNDER A PILLOW
AND DON'T KNOW YOUR NAME

I KNOW I'M NOT WHAT YOU ASKED FOR
ONLY WHAT'S LEFT
AFTER A NIGHT OF TRADE

YOUR BODY
FOR A LITTLE SHAME

BUT REMEMBER, DEAR MOTHER
THAT I CAN FIT UNDER A PILLOW
AND WILL NEVER SAY YOUR NAME

NO AGE

2010-05-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

1000 MILES
AND A LIST OF THINGS I HAVE MADE
I WILL HAVE UNDONE YOUR PRIDE
AND PULLED BACK YOUR HAIR
TO LOOK STRAIGHT INTO YOUR EYES

I AM GOOD AT A FEW THINGS
AND BRILLIANT AT 1000 MORE
IT'S JUST OH SO BAD
THAT I CAN'T SHOW OFF FOR YOU
I HAVE EYES FOR YOU
AND I HAVE A SURPRISE FOR YOU

I'M GETTING BETTER WITH AGE

RUNNING UNDER THE CITY LIGHTS
I KNOW WHAT FEELS GOOD
I KNOW HOW WARM IT IS
I KNOW WHERE IT IS

1000 THINGS AND MORE
FOR US TO CONTEMPLATE TONIGHT
BEFORE WHAT IS UNDONE
IS BOILED IN OUR HEARTS
LATHER UP, DEAR
IT IS TIME TO SIN

THE AIR
OH, THE AIR IS STIRRING
AND I AM CAPABLE, BRILLIANT, REASSURING
I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE TO FIND IT
AND I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THE PRICE IS

BECAUSE I'M GETTING BETTER WITH AGE

SURE, SORROW HAS ITS PLACE
AND TOMORROW WILL HIDE ITS FACE
BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY

BECAUSE I'M ONLY GETTING BETTER WITH AGE

AND NO MATTER WHERE YOU FIND IT
THE DAWN WILL ONLY BREAK LATER
HAVING MORE THAN TIME
TO FILL UP THE BLACK NIGHT
HAVING MORE THAN TIME
TO TEAR THROUGH YOUR APPETITE

SO KISS KISS
BRING YOUR LIPS HERE
BRING EVERYTHING YOU'RE READY TO LOSE
BECAUSE I KNOW YOUR TASTE
AND I HAVE A SECRET

I'M GETTING BETTER WITH AGE

TASTE

2010-05-02T19:45:00.000-07:00

I HATE USING A STRAW.

WORTHLESS.
DESIGNED FOR "GOOD" PURPOSE.
DESIGNED FOR A LOSS IN PLEASURE.
KEEP YOUR TEETH WHITE.
GET IT DOWN YOUR THROAT.
1000 MILES PER HOUR.
SOPHISTICATED.
THE ADVANCEMENT OF SOCIETY.
AN ADVANCEMENT IN DEGRADATION.

I DON'T WANT TO BE CLEAN.
I DON'T WANT TO BE UP TO DATE.
I WANT IT ALL OVER MY LIPS.
I WANT TO TASTE ALL OF IT.

LIPS ON THE GLASS.
LICK THE ICE.
TONGUE THE ICE.
I WANT ALL OF IT.

TO HELL WITH SOPHISTICATION.
TO HELL WITH YOUR WONDERFUL DESIGN.

A GHOST

2010-04-20T21:31:00.000-07:00

YOU MIGHT WASH ME AWAY WITH THE RAIN
AND I WOULD NEVER KNOW IT

TRIP OVER ME IN PUDDLES
AVOID ME IN THE STREET
KEEP ME OUT YOUR PRETTY HAIR
TO KEEP ME UNDER YOUR FEET

BUT WHETHER I AM ABOVE OR BELOW
I WILL ALWAYS BE AROUND
MAKING SURE YOU WILL ALWAYS KNOW
THAT MY HATRED FOR YOU
WILL NEVER BE COMPLETE

WE ARE THE WINDOWSILL

2010-01-20T19:47:00.000-08:00

LET US TALK ABOUT THE WEATHER, YOU AND I
LET US PRETEND WE DON'T SEE AT ALL
OUR EYES BEHIND THE CURTAINS
OUR LIPS BEHIND THE GLASS

OUTSIDE, THE WEATHER IS STIRRING
OPENING HER MOUTH AND YAWNING
WAITING FOR US TO TOUCH
WAITING FOR WHAT WE'VE EXPECTED
BEFORE IT GETS ELECTRIC

GRAB A PART OF ME AND RUN
LIE DOWN, BREATHE, DAMN IT
SPREAD, BREATHE, DRESS, AND RUN

IS THAT ALL WE HAD IN MIND,
FROM THE BEGINNING?
WALKING THROUGH DOORS THAT SHUT
BEFORE THEY OPEN

AND WE'VE FINISHED BEFORE THE STORM'S BEGUN
MAKING ALL OUR NOISE
WITHOUT ANYTHING TO VALIDATE OUR FUN

AND NOW ALL WE HAVE IS THE WEATHER
TO TALK ABOUT AND SPIT ABOUT
WATCHING EVERYTHING FROM BEHIND THE GLASS
BECAUSE ALL WE HAVE EVER HAD
WAS NEVER MEANT TO LAST

DO YOU SEE HER?

2009-11-01T22:03:00.000-08:00

DO YOU SEE HER?
IN YOUR BLACK NIGHT
WHEN EVERYTHING ELSE AROUND YOU
EMITS A BLACK LIGHT
SHOWING YOU THAT EVERYTHING IS THE SAME

DO YOU SEE HER?
FLOATING OUTSIDE AROUND
DANCING & TWIRLING
TURNING OLD RAGS INTO GOWNS
BECOMING EVERYTHING TO EVERYONE WITHOUT THE FAME

HER SKIN GLOWS
HER BODY KNOWS
THE RIGHT WAY
THE BETTER WAY
EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT

WE ARE MOUNTAINS APART
BOUGHT AND SOLD
WORTH MORE FOR OUR DIRT
THAN FOR OUR HEARTS OF GOLD

YOUR OCEANS HAVE NAMES
BEING DEAD, BEING DRY
I WILL RUN TO YOU
I WILL RUN FOR YEARS
I WILL RUN
TO CARRY YOU STREAMS

EVEN IN THE BLACK OF NIGHT
I SEE YOU
I WILL BRING YOU WATER
I WILL BRING YOU TREES

WE'LL FLOURISH IN THE COLD
IN THE DARK
WE'LL COME ALIVE

WE'LL BURN IN THE NIGHT
BECOMING ALL OUR OWN
FOR EVERYONE TO SEE

MOUTH

2009-10-01T19:03:00.000-07:00

RUN THOSE FINGERS ALONG YOUR LIPS
ONE MORE TIME
AND I'LL RUN EVERYTHING I HAVE
ALONG YOUR LIPS
UNTIL EVERYTHING I HAVE
IS NO LONGER MINE

I'LL GIVE YOU ALL MY COINS
I'LL HAND YOU MY SOUL
I'LL BURY YOUR HUSBAND IN THE EARTH
AND PRETEND LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW

I'LL BURN DOWN A FOREST
AND TAKE FOOD FROM THE HUNGRY
SWALLOW ALL THE RAIN
AND DRINK EVERY RIVER
LEAVING A PILE OF SAND
AS THEIR NEW COUNTRY

DON'T DOUBT ME

I'LL LEAVE THEM NAKED
TAKING THE HAIR FROM THEIR BODIES

TO HAVE YOUR LIPS
IS TO HAVE MY LIFE
I'LL KILL FOR YOUR LIPS
FOR YOU, MY WIFE

DEFINITION

2009-09-10T21:01:00.000-07:00

I WISH TO FAMILIARIZE YOU WITH A VERY POWERFUL WORD.

ADIEU.

IT ORIGINATES FROM FRENCH AND LITERALLY TRANSLATED MEANS 'TO GOD'.
IT IS THE ABBREVIATED VERSION OF THE FULL EXPRESSION 'I COMMEND YOU TO GOD'.

IT IS A WORD THAT SHOULD ONLY LEAVE YOUR MOUTH ONCE TO ANY ONE PERSON.
IT IS EITHER THE MOST ENDEARING FORM OF SAYING A FINAL GOODBYE WITHOUT HAVING TO SAY ANYTHING ELSE /
OR THE MOST HATEFUL DEPARTURE YOU COULD LEAVE WITH SOMEONE.

NOW DON'T CONFUSE THIS WITH THE MOST COMMON FAREWELL OF 'GOODBYE' /
WHICH IS THE ABBREVIATED FORM OF 'GOD BE WITH YE' /
THAT IS INDEED GENUINE AND AUTHENTIC AS MUCH AS IT CAN BE /
BUT RESTS ON THE IDEA THAT YOU INTEND, BY CHANCE OR PURPOSE, TO SEE OR COMMUNICATE WITH THIS PERSON IN THE NEAR FUTURE.

ADIEU IS SINGULAR IN PURPOSE.
VERY BLACK / VERY MACABRE
OR
VERY WHITE / VERY CELESTIAL

HERE IT IS FOR YOU AS PLAIN AS DAY /

THERE IS A GUN IN YOUR MOUTH.
YOU ARE LICKING THE BULLET THAT WILL IN A MATTER OF SECONDS BE LICKING YOUR BRAIN.

THE ONLY PERSON YOU LOVE IS WRAPPED TIGHTLY AROUND YOUR ARM.
YOUR SUNSHINE. YOUR HEART. YOUR FLOWER.
YOU LOOK DOWN, THEY LOOK UP, AND YOU BOTH SIP FROM THAT BITTER CUP.
THERE IS NO SUGAR IN THIS TEA.
AND ALL THEY HAVE TO WHISPER, WITH EVERYTHING THEY COULD SAY, THAT MEANS EVERYTHING,
THAT MEANS YOU WILL SEE THEM AGAIN / BUT ONLY IN THE EMBRACE OF GOD /

ADIEU.

YOUR MURDERER SMILES.
AND IT GLITTERS ONLY IN THE MOONLIGHT.
THEIR BREATH IS HOT AND WILTS YOUR BOUQUETS & FLOWERS.
THIS MOMENT IS HATEFUL. THIS MOMENT CHANGES LIVES.
THE GUN DOESN'T FIRE BULLETS.
IT FIRES CANCER / DEATH / DISEASE / FAMINE / PANIC / HEARTBREAK / FILTH / SIN / THE EMPTINESS OF THE WORLD / THE BLACK HEART OF SATAN /
AND ALL THEY HAVE TO WHISPER, WITH EVERYTHING THEY COULD SAY, THAT MEANS EVERYTHING,
THAT MEANS YOU WILL SEE THEM AGAIN / BUT ONLY IN THE WRATH OF GOD /

ADIEU.

ONLY ONCE.
YOU NEVER REPEAT IT.
YOU LOVE OR YOU HATE.
I'LL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN OR I'LL SEE YOU IN HELL.
BUT EITHER WAY YOU MEAN IT,
ON THIS EARTH, YOU'LL NEVER MEET AGAIN.

FOR SOMEONE WHO LIVES IN A WORLD OF GREY,
THAT SURE IS A LOT OF BLACK & WHITE.

SO BE MINDFUL.
KNOW WHAT YOU SAY BEFORE YOU SAY IT.
YOUR WORDS DEFINE YOU AND COLOR YOUR HEART.
DON'T BE FOOLISH AND COMMONPLACE AND RECITE LAVISH EXPRESSIONS YOU READ IN BOOKS.

MEAN IT.
LOOK PEOPLE IN THE EYES.
AND MEAN IT, FOOL.

ADIEU

2009-09-09T20:22:00.000-07:00

YOU CHERISH ME
TO MAKE YOUR BITE A LITTLE MORE FIRM
TO MAKE YOUR HEART FEEL A LITTLE LESS
THAN TO FEEL EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE

IT'S A TICK PAST MIDNIGHT
AND THE FEELING HAS LOST ALL OF ITS WARMTH
ITS VALOR AND ITS SUN

I KNOW THIS HOUR
I KNOW THIS CELEBRATION
I WELCOME THIS FEELING
I WELCOME THE MESSAGE
I WELCOME EVERYTHING YOU HATE
FROM LEAVING YOU ALONE & NUMB

GREY FOOTSTEPS
AROUND A GREY CITY
WITH GREY PEOPLE
WHERE GREY BECOMES ONE

I WALK AROUND
I SEE THIS CITY
I SEE THROUGH PEOPLE
AND I WORK IN ABSOLUTES

I AM BLACK & WHITE
I AM A SKYSCRAPER
I AM A SMALL CITY
I AM THE RAIN CLOUD
I DON'T WALK
BECAUSE I RUN

DOWN YOUR NECK
AND DOWN YOUR BLOUSE
ALL ACROSS YOUR CITY
AND INTO YOUR MOUTH

I FIND MY LITTLE WAY
AROUND YOUR LITTLE STREETS
AND WASH AWAY
EVERYTHING I FIND
THAT'S INCOMPLETE

THERE IS NO MIDDLE GROUND
THERE ARE NO FOUNDATIONS
ONLY RUBBLE, DEBRIS, TRASH
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
THAT IS GREY THAT MEANS ANYTHING

THIS HOUR IS MINE
AND I AM GOING TO KEEP IT
AND IT'S THIS HOUR I WILL CHERISH
I WILL KEEP
I WILL REMEMBER
WHENEVER I SEE
YOUR PRECIOUS SUN

REST IN REASON
MOVE IN PASSION
IT IS ONLY ME
YOU CAN BELIEVE IN

I AM A SMALL CITY
WITH MANY SMALL STREETS
AND I AM YOUR REASON
AND I AM YOUR HEARTBEAT

I AM THE RAIN CLOUD
TO YOUR SUNNY STREETS
AND I AM THE REASON
BEHIND YOUR DEFEAT

I AM YOUR CITY
I AM YOUR CLOUD
I AM EVERYTHING YOU WANT
AND IT IS NOT ALLOWED

I AM YOUR VICE
I AM YOUR LOSS
I AM YOUR REGRET
I AM YOUR GUILT
I AM YOUR EVERY FLAW
I AM YOUR BLACK
I AM YOUR WHITE
I AM YOUR DEATH

AND FOR IT ALL
I STAND ALONE
& I STAND PROUD

ICON

2009-08-24T19:43:00.000-07:00

MY MOTHER WAS 16 WHEN SHE WAS PREGNANT WITH ME IN HER BELLY /
I WAS BORN WHEN SHE WAS 17 /
A MISTAKE / 999,999 OUT OF 1,000,000 /
1981 /
I HAVE GROWN UP MY ENTIRE LIFE WATCHING HER GROW UP /
WATCHING HER /
LISTENING TO WHAT SHE LISTENS TO /
AFRAID OF WHAT SHE WAS AFRAID OF /
SUBJECT TO WHAT SHE WAS SUBJECT TO /

SHE WAS A ROCKER /
SHE WAS A HOT PINK RAT TAIL, LEATHER AND CHAINS, SEX, DRUGS, AND ROCK AND ROLL MANIAC /

YOU WILL NO DOUBT SEE MANY MORE OF THESE ENTRIES /
THESE WERE MY IDOLS GROWING UP /
THEY ARE STILL MY IDOLS /

THEY WERE MY POSTERS, MY RECORDS, MY FATHERS, AND MY TEACHERS /

THIS IS NOT NOSTALGIA /
THIS IS NOT MY ATTEMPT AT CREDIBILITY /

THIS IS PERSONAL /
THIS IS ME /

AND THIS IS OZZY OSBOURNE /

"I GOT RABIES SHOTS FOR BITING THE HEAD OFF A BAT, BUT THAT'S OKAY...
THE BAT HAD TO GET OZZY SHOTS."

JOIN OR DIE

2009-08-19T21:27:00.000-07:00

THERE ARE FEW FILMS WHERE I FEEL I CAN TOTALLY RELATE TO THE STORY, THE CHARACTERS, OR THE MOOD /
BUT I FEEL THIS ONE IN MY BONES /

THE BREAKFAST CLUB /

I AM AN ATHLETE / I WAS INVOLVED IN SPORTS FROM JUNIOR HIGH THROUGH COLLEGE / I HAVE WON CHAMPIONSHIPS / COLLECTIVE AND INDIVIDUAL / I HAVE SET RECORDS / I HAVE BEEN THE NEWS / LOCALLY AND NATIONALLY / I HAVE RAISED THAT BAR / I HAVE FELT PRESSURE / I HAVE FELT WEIGHT / AND FOR A TIME, I DID GIVE IT ALL UP FOR SOMETHING ELSE, DESPITE THE INSISTENCE OF OTHERS / I KNOW TROPHIES / I KNOW GOLD MEDALS / I KNOW SCHOLARSHIPS / I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO BE BETTER THAN YOU /

I AM A BRAIN / I HAVE PASSED LEARNING CURVES AND STANDARDS SINCE THE 3RD GRADE WHERE I WAS GIVEN MY OWN WEEKLY SCHEDULE AND ASSIGNMENTS APART FROM THE REST OF MY PEERS AT A RESPECTABLE SCHOOL IN CALIFORNIA / OTHER THAN COMPLETING HIGHER GRADE HOMEWORK & COURSES, I WAS GIVEN THE WEEKLY TASK OF SUBMITTING A REPORT ON ANY SUBJECT OF MY LIKING / IT WAS NO WONDER THEN, NOR TODAY, THAT EACH OF MY WEEKLY REPORTS FOR THE REST OF THAT ENTIRE YEAR WAS BASED ON A DIFFERENT DINOSAUR / 40 WEEKS / 40 DINOSAURS / I KNOW SMALL CLASS SIZES / I KNOW WHAT EXAMS ARE GOOD FOR / I KNOW ADVANCED / I KNOW WHAT SCHOLASTIC MEANS / FROM DINOSAURS TO GRADUATE OF THE YEAR, SUMMA CUM LAUDE, FROM THE SCHOOL OF DESIGN AT ARIZONA STATE, I KNOW ACADEMICS /

I AM A NOBODY / BLACK IS MY COLOR / I HAVE SECRETS / I AM A LIAR / I AM A MANIPULATOR / MY HAIR IS THIS WAY AND THAT / I EAT CEREAL FOR MEALS / I POUT / I KNOW HOW TO HIDE / I COME ALIVE AT NIGHT / I CAN COUNT MY FRIENDS ON ONE HAND / I DON'T WANT ANY MORE FRIENDS THAN I CAN COUNT ON ONE HAND / I KNOW STRANGE / I KNOW HORROR / MY NIGHTS ARE MORE ROMANTIC THAN YOURS / I KNOW DARKNESS / I KNOW HOW TO BE HATED / I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO HATE / I KNOW LONELINESS / I KNOW SOLITUDE /

I AM SOMEBODY / I AM PAMPERED / I AM SPOILED / I KNOW HOW TO PLAY THAT CARD / I GET WHAT I WANT / I HAVE HAD A FRESH WARDROBE FOR EACH NEW SEASON / IF I DIDN'T CARE TO WORK, I KNOW THAT I WOULD STILL BE TAKEN CARE OF / I KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO GET BY ON YOUR FAMILY'S FORTUNE / I KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO HAVE SOMEONE ELSE'S SWEAT BUY YOU THAT NEW CAR / I KNOW REFINEMENT / I KNOW THE NICE THINGS / I KNOW THE RIGHT BRANDS / I KNOW TEA & CRUMPETS / I KNOW THE SALAD FORK FROM THE DINNER FORK / MY HANDSHAKE IS FIRM / I KNOW WHAT NEW MEANS / I KNOW SHINY / I KNOW RESPECT / I KNOW CONTROL /

I AM A REBEL / I KNOW WHAT A FIGHT IS / I KNOW HOW TO MAKE MY KNUCKLES BLEED / I HAVE SCARS / I HAVE BEEN HIT / I HAVE A TONGUE AS MUCH AS I HAVE TEETH / I WILL LOOK YOU IN THE EYES / I KNOW WHAT A THREAT IS / I KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO HAVE A WOLF IN YOUR HOUSE OF STRAW AND STICKS / OR TWO / OR THREE / OR FOUR TIMES OVER / I KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKED BEING KICKED OUT OF YOUR HOME AT 16 / AND NEVER GOING BACK / I KNOW WHAT BEING REPLACED MEANS / I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE A TAX DEDUCTION / I KNOW LOST / I KNOW DISOBEDIENCE / I KNOW DISHONOR / I KNOW SIN /

WHO ARE YOU.

TELLING

2009-08-16T23:27:00.000-07:00

I WAS TOLD THE OTHER NIGHT
THAT THIS BLOG OF MINE
IS

INCOMPREHENSIBLE
NONSENSE
SCATTERBRAINED
NEITHER HERE
NOR THERE

AND YOU ARE ALL COMPLETELY RIGHT & CORRECT

I AM ALL OVER THE PLACE
I AM A LITTLE BEE
WITH MANY FLOWERS TO TEND TO
NOT FOR ANY GOOD PURPOSE
OTHER THAN TO MAKE A LITTLE HONEY

I FLOAT WITH THE WIND
I DISAPPEAR
I STING
I AM THAT CLOSE TO LOSING IT ALL
I AM SMALL
I LIKE TO BE LEFT ALONE
I TAKE FROM THE BEAUTIFUL

AND FOR THIS I ASK NO FORGIVENESS
I WRITE THESE FEW WORDS NOW AND AGAIN
AND IF YOU HAPPEN TO CROSS THEM
YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND ME
YOU WON'T KNOW ME ANY BETTER
BUT YOU'LL SEE MY FLOWERS
YOU'LL TASTE A BIT OF MY HONEY
YOU'LL TASTE A BIT OF MY WAX
AND KNOW THAT I AM AROUND
NOT BECAUSE YOU SEE ME
BUT ONLY WHAT I'VE LEFT LYING AROUND

FUR FOR FLESH

2009-08-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

YOU ARE PETTY
YOU ARE A LITTLE BIT OF LUXURY
AND A WHOLE LOT OF FILTH

A POUND OF FLESH
FOR A SCENT OF A WISH

HUNGRY FOR PLEASURE
BUT YOUR SKIN DOESN'T FIT

IT'S A BASE THING
YOU'RE RUNNING AFTER
YOU'RE KILLING FOR
YOU'RE GUNNING FOR

YOU'RE AN ANIMAL
WITH EYES OF SIN
YOU'RE AN ANIMAL
WITH MORE THAN A PRICE
FOR YOUR SKIN

POUND FOR POUND
A TONGUE WET WITH BLOOD
YOU'RE WORTH MY EVERY DOLLAR
YOU'RE WORTH THE PLEASURE
YOU ANIMAL
YOU PRIZE
YOU, LOVE
YOU, LOVE
I'LL SAY IT ONCE MORE
YOU, LOVE
POUND FOR POUND
ARE WORTH ALL MY LOVE

BOSS

2009-08-06T17:56:00.000-07:00

I MADE MY FIRST LEAP INTO BECOMING A CIVILIZED GENTLEMAN /
I JUST PURCHASED A PAIR OF HUGO BOSS BOOTS THAT WILL TAKE ME:

FROM CITY TO CITY /
FROM TOWN TO TOWN /
FROM SCRAP YARDS & WOOD PILES /
TO THE END OF THE WORLD /

THE BOOTS ARE EXQUISITE
THE CRAFTSMANSHIP IS APPARENT FROM ACROSS THE ROOM
THE LEATHER IS SOFT & SUPPLE
THE SOLES CAN GLIDE ACROSS A GLASS FLOOR
BUT STILL CRUSH A SKULL IN LOOSE GRAVEL

AND ALL OF THIS, IT SEEMS, HAS A REASON /

HUGO BOSS BEGAN HIS BUSINESS IN 1933 AS THE DESIGNER AND SUPPLIER OF UNIFORMS FOR THE NAZI GERMAN 'SA' AND 'SS', THE PARAMILITARY OUTFITS RESPONSIBLE FOR PROTECTING THE FUHRER HIMSELF AND CARRYING OUT HIS CRIMES /

AFTER THE DEMAND FOR SUCH UNIFORMS DIMINISHED, HE BEGAN MAKING CUSTOM SUITS AND FINE APPAREL /
FOLLOWING HIS DEATH THE COMPANY CONTINUED ON IN HIS NAME, BECOMING WHAT IT IS TODAY /

THAT BROAD SHOULDERED, MILITARY STYLE THEY CAPTURE AND ACHIEVE SO WELL, IT SEEMS, HAS A REASON /

ICON

2009-08-03T20:35:00.000-07:00

I SAT NEXT TO BILLY CORGAN AT LUNCH TODAY.

MY FIRST MUSICAL IDOL AND HERO /
MY VERY FIRST CONCERT WAS THE SMASHING PUMPKINS DURING THE 'MELLON COLLIE & THE INFINITE SADNESS' TOUR /
I STOLE SOME MONEY FROM MY MOM AND GAVE IT TO A FRIEND WHO COULD DRIVE (I WAS 14) TO GO AND BUY MY TICKET /

'SIAMESE DREAM' AWAKENED MY SOUL AND OPENED MY THEN, CLOSED MIND /
I KNEW EVERY LYRIC / AND STILL DO / I LEARNED THEM ALL BY LISTENING TO THE ENTIRE ALBUM OVER AND OVER AGAIN DURING A SEVEN HOUR CAR RIDE THROUGH THE DESERT WITH MY GRANDPARENTS /

THE ART FOR SIAMESE & MELLON COLLIE INSPIRED ME TO DRAW AND I TIRELESSLY COPIED AND TRACED EACH GRAPHIC UNTIL I COULD FREEHAND ANY OF THEM AT WILL /

I USED HIS POETRY IN LOVE LETTERS AND NOTES /

THE ONLY PRESENT I ASKED FOR FOR A CHRISTMAS ONE YEAR, WAS 'THE AEROPLANE FLIES HIGH' BOX SET / THE 5 DISC B-SIDE SET TO 'MELLON COLLIE & THE INFINITE SADNESS' / UNCLE MARTY GAVE IT TO ME /

THE SONG I LISTENED TO ON THE CAR RIDE TO MY FIRST KISS WAS 'THIRTY THREE' /

THE FIRST SONG I LEARNED TO PLAY ON GUITAR WAS 'TODAY' /

I USED TO FALL ASLEEP WATCHING 'VIEUPHORIA' LATE AT NIGHT / JAMES IHA INSPIRED MY GUITAR PLAYING WITH HIS UNCONVENTIONAL SOLO / NOISE DURING THE LAST EIGHT MINUTE LIVE FIASCO OF 'SILVERFUCK' / MOST NOTABLY WHERE HE PLACES A LAZER TAG GUN AGAINST HIS PICKUPS AND PARTIES UNTIL BILLY SMASHES HIS GUITAR AND BEGINS TEARING APART HIS AMP & CAB AND THROWING THE DRUMS TO THE GROUND /

I AM A PUMPKIN /

ICON

2009-07-30T22:29:00.000-07:00

"I KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
AND I AM NOT IMPRESSED."

/ JOAN JETT

BRAVERY

2009-07-30T21:31:00.000-07:00

YOU CAN HAVE YOUR TIME
SHOW UP TO THE PARTY
WITH TIGHT CURLS IN YOUR HAIR

YOU SHOW UP, SINCERE
BELIEVING VERY HONESTLY
THAT SOMEONE ELSE IS THERE

YOU TAKE THE BEST
OF WHAT WAS NEVER YOURS
STUFF IT ALL IN YOUR MOUTH
AND PRETEND NOTHING WAS EVER THERE

THERE WAS LIFE ONCE
BEFORE YOU ENTERED THE ROOM
YOU TAKE THE BEST OF EVERYTHING
BEFORE IT HAS TIME TO BLOOM

BUT YOU CAN HAVE YOUR TIME
GO AHEAD AND COUNT YOUR SUCCESSES
WHILE I COUNT THE SECONDS
AND FIND A NEW WAY
TO BURN ALL OF YOUR DRESSES

I'M GIVING YOU A LICENSE
SPIN, TWIRL, TIPTOE, SASHAY
I'LL GIVE YOU WHAT I HAD
BEFORE YOU CAME HERE TODAY

CALL IT A GIFT, A FAVOR
SOMETHING YOU WANT SO BADLY
MY SMALL GIFT TO YOU
BECAUSE I KNOW YOU CAN'T HAVE IT
ANY OTHER WAY, SADLY

DANCE IN THE CORNER
AND SHOUT HOORAY
I KNOW YOU SHOWED UP TO PARTY
BUT WE WERE LEAVING
HAVING LEFT, LONG BEFORE YOU CAME

SO NOW YOU HAVE YOUR PRESENT
THE LEFTOVERS OF WHAT I MADE
I'VE GONE ELSEWHERE TO SEARCH FOR THINGS
FOR WHICH, ONE DAY, YOU'LL COME TO CLAIM

BUT I'LL ALWAYS BE AHEAD OF YOU
TURNING FESTIVALS INTO PARADES
ALL OF THOSE THINGS
YOU WISH YOU WERE DOING
ALL OF THOSE THINGS
THAT WERE PURPOSELY ABSENT
THE VERY INSTANT THAT YOU WERE MADE

FORGIVE ME

2009-07-29T21:27:00.000-07:00

WE ARE AN OCEAN
WE ARE BURIED, BABY
THERE IN THE DEEP
THE DARK
THE LONELY
THE START

WE ARE BURIED, BABY
THE SUN, HOT
THE DESERT
THE YEARNING

TO HAVE MEANS YOU WANTED
WHILE THE WANTING
TEARS US APART

YOU CAN ROT OR YOU CAN STARVE
ON THE EARTH OR BELOW IT
WE ARE BURIED, BABY
WE ARE AND YOU KNOW IT

FORGET
ASK ONCE MORE
DIG, DIG
AND BURY IT

GORGEOUS

2009-07-28T20:47:00.000-07:00

WELCOME BACK

2009-07-26T22:35:00.000-07:00

THIS FANCY TONGUE
WILL SING TO YOU
WILL PLEASE YOU
WILL MAKE EVERYTHING WELL

I CAN WHISPER
I KNOW YOUR HEART
I CAN PLEASE YOU
ALL OF THIS, TONIGHT

I CAN REACH YOU

I CAN PLEASE YOU

I CAN PLEASE YOU

I WILL PLEASE YOU

I CAN REACH YOU

I NEED TO PLEASE YOU

I AM HERE TO PLEASE YOU

I CAN REACH YOU

I CAN PLEASE YOU

I WANT TO PLEASE YOU

I LOVE TO PLEASE YOU

LET ME PLEASE YOU

I NEED YOU

REPOST / I AM ART

2009-07-22T19:11:00.000-07:00

IF YOU LOOK VERY CLOSELY /
YOU WILL SEE ME /
YOU WHO KNOW ME /
YOU WHO SEE /
YOU WILL KNOW ME /

ALL ART / BRAD KAHLHAMER

BURN

2009-07-22T17:56:00.000-07:00

MAKE IT HARD FOR ME
MAKE IT DIFFICULT

TURN ME SIDEWAYS
TURN ME ON MY HEAD
TURN EVERYTHING AROUND ME
INSIDE OUT / UPSIDE DOWN
LEAVE ME FOR DEAD

LEAVE ME IN THE MIDDLE OF AN EMPTY FIELD
ABANDON ME IN A LAKE
A ONE WAY FLIGHT
TO A COUNTRY YOU CAN'T NAME

TIE ME TO A DYING TREE
DEAD / DYING / DEAD / DYING

TEA TIME

2009-07-15T20:52:00.001-07:00

IT IS SEEMING TO ME
THAT I AM LATE FOR SOMETHING
LATE FOR A FEW THINGS
LATE TO MY OWN PARTY
AND LATE TO THE BEST THINGS

I FIND, LATE
I TEMPT, TOO LATE
I BURN, MUCH TOO LATE
I RECOVER, EVEN LATER
AND POLITELY SIP,
I'LL HAVE MORE SUGAR, PLEASE

I AM RUNNING LATE
MY HEART TICKING
WHILE MY ARMS ARE WINDING
THESE FOOTSTEPS LOOK FAMILIAR
STILL LATE,
MUCH TOO LATE,
I'D LIKE A SPOT OF HONEY, PLEASE

YOU ARE INVITED
THERE IS A TABLE FOR TWO,
FOR THREE, FOR YOU AND FOR ME,
AND EVERYONE I WILL,
HAVE A SEAT,
I'LL BE AROUND BEFORE THE CANDLE'S OUT
I HAVE SO MUCH TO SHOW YOU
SO MUCH FOR YOU TO TASTE

JUST WAIT FOR ME,
I'M JUST AROUND THE MOUNTAIN,
HAVE A LITTLE SUGAR
HAVE A LITTLE HONEY
HERE'S A SPOON FOR YOUR STIRRING
HERE'S A SPOUT FOR YOUR POURING
TAKE A LITTLE TIME
AND HAVE A PARTY
AND I'LL BE THERE
WHEN THE CANDLE IS GLOWING

TWO

2009-06-27T16:31:00.000-07:00

I HAVE TWO OBSESSIONS / CONFESSIONS / ABSOLUTIONS

1. I AM NOT WORTH THE DIRT I STAND ON.
2. I AM A SELFISH FOOL.

IS THERE ANYONE ELSE OUT THERE THAT BELIEVES THAT EVERYONE ELSE IS CONCERNED ABOUT EVERYTHING THEY DO?
DO WE ALL THINK THAT FOR SOME REASON EVERYONE CARES?
IS THAT WHY WE BLOG ABOUT EVERYTHING WE DO?
IS THAT WHY WE "COMMUNICATE" EVERY THIRTY SECONDS TO SOMEONE WE HARDLY EVER SEE?
HARDLY EVEN KNOW?
MIGHT CARE ABOUT WHEN THEY DIE?
MIGHT CARE ABOUT ONLY WHEN YOU'RE COMPELLED TO BE HUMBLE?

AND DOES THAT EMBARRASS YOU?
ARE YOU ASHAMED THAT THERE IS SOMEONE BETTER OUT THERE?
BETTER THAN YOU EVER COULD BE?

DOES ANYONE CARE FOR ANYTHING FOR MORE THAN A FEW HOURS ANYMORE?
OR DOES THAT CARE MOVE WITH BREEZE AND SCATTER WITH THE FALL OF THE AUTUMN LEAVES?

WE CARE FOR A SEASON, WE CARE WITHOUT HAVING A REASON
WE CARE ABOUT NOTHING MORE, THAN WHAT TO US, IS JUST A LITTLE PLEASING.
AND I DO MEAN LITTLE.

THEN YOU, LIKE ME, ARE A FOOL.
A SELF-DEGRADING OVER SELF-ACCEPTING THIEF.
AND THE WORLD HAS NO HOLD ON ME.
AND THOUGH I AM HUNTED DOWN,
IT'S NEVER ME THEY WANT,
IT'S ONLY WHAT I CAN DO.
SO GO ON,
AND TAKE IT ALL,
TAKE EVERYTHING YOU CAN FIT IN YOUR HANDS AND MOUTH,
AND TAKE FROM ME.

DESTROYER

2009-06-23T23:25:00.000-07:00

INFIRM

2009-06-21T22:53:00.000-07:00

YOUR HANDS ON THE PAPER
THE PRESCRIPTION IS WRITTEN
ALL NOTED WITH CARE

BUT THE INK IS MISSING
YOU WROTE DOWN YOUR FEELINGS
WITHOUT SHOWING YOU CARED

HERE, A PLAGUE
THE SICK TREAT THE SICK
IN A CITY WITH NO COMPASSION
WE SPREAD THE INFECTION
HAND TO HAND
YOUR HAND
MY KISS
IS ALL WE NEED
TO SEAL OUR DISTRESS

THE WARMTH,
THE DEPTH,
THE BODY, AND THE BREADTH.
IT'S AS SIMPLE AS HEALING
CURING, REVIVING, AND BLESSING THE SICK

IT'S ABOUT THE TOUCH,
IT'S MORE THAN THE THOUGHT,
THAT SOMEDAY WE'LL BE THERE TOGETHER,
SOMEWHERE WHERE SOMEWHERE IS NOT

WE HAVE THE MONEY
BUT OUR ORGANS ARE FOR SELL
WE, THE SICK
ARE DYING
ARE DEAD
WE, THE SICK
MAKE THE HEALTHY
FEEL BETTER
BY STAYING IN BED

WE'RE NOT RUNNING AROUND
INFECTING, SPREADING, AND MAKING SICK
INSTEAD WE'RE RESTING
BREATHING, SAVING OUR STRENGTH

AND YOUR PILLS WON'T HELP
BECAUSE OUR HEARTS DON'T HAVE A MOUTH
AND YOUR CURE CAN'T CURE
WHAT IT KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT

WE

2009-06-16T21:45:00.000-07:00

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UP IN ARMS

2009-06-13T09:16:00.000-07:00

I'VE BEEN TOLD RECENTLY THAT I AM THE MEANEST NICE PERSON YOU COULD EVER MEET.

I'LL EXPLAIN IT RIGHT HERE /
IF I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU.
IF I HATE YOU, I REALLY HATE YOU.
AND IF I HATE YOU, I LOVE TO HATE YOU.

IF I LOVE YOU,
MY LOVE WILL RUN THROUGH MY FINGERTIPS
DOWN YOUR SPINE
ALL ALONG YOUR SKIN
AND ACROSS YOUR THIGHS

MY EYES WILL SING YOU A MELODY
THAT YOU WILL NEVER HEAR ON THE RADIO
MY LIPS WILL TELL YOU STORIES
THAT CAN'T BE WRITTEN ON PAGES

I WILL TELL YOU EVERYTHING
YOU'VE NEVER HEARD ABOUT YOURSELF.
AND KNOW THAT I MEAN IT.
AND YOU WON'T HAVE TO BE THAT FAR AWAY,
TO HEAR IT.
YOU COULD BE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THAT MOUNTAIN,
YOU COULD BE AROUND THE CORNER,
YOU COULD BE IN MONTREAL,
YOU COULD ME RIGHT NEXT TO ME.

WE WOULD BE BREATHING THE SAME AIR.
WE WOULD BE SEEING THE SAME MOON.

YOU WOULD KNOW ME,
BECAUSE I KNOW YOU.
YOU WOULD SHOW ME,
BECAUSE I SHOW YOU.

BUT IF I HATE YOU
I REALLY HATE YOU.

I HAVE KNIVES FOR YOU.
AND ONLY FOR YOU
TO EAT AND TO SWALLOW.

FEMME VOILÉE

2009-06-10T21:04:00.000-07:00

HERE IS BEAUTY.

FEMME VOILÉE
(VEILED WOMAN)
BY ANTONIO CORRADINI
EARLY 1700'S
SCULPTED MARBLE
MUSÉE DU LOUVRE / PARIS, FRANCE

THE BAPTIST

2009-06-09T21:56:00.000-07:00

YOU ARE A SINNER
AND YOUR ONLY WISH
WILL CONDEMN YOU TO HELL

YOUR SIN WOULD SAVE YOU
UNTIL YOUR SIN FORGAVE YOU
FOR BEING A SAINT AS WELL

SWIM IN THIS WATER
AND I'LL SAVE YOU THE BOTHER
OF WALKING TO DROWN

40 DAYS, OUR HANDS IN THE DIRT
MY HANDS UNDER YOUR SKIRT
WE'VE LEFT THE DESERT
AND WE'RE HEADED TO TOWN

EMBRACE THE WICKED
IN THE FACE OF EVIL
WINK, CARESS, AND LICK IT
SPIT ON THE DEVIL AND SMILE

I'LL EAT LOCUSTS
YOU TASTE LIKE HONEY
I LOVE YOU
SO LOVE ME

EVERYTHING WE'VE DONE
WE'VE SAID
WE'VE WON
WE'VE MEANT

IN THE DESERT, IN THE CITY
WE DANCED WITH THE DEVIL

WORTHWHILE.

SAVE YOU / SAVE ME

2009-06-04T22:34:00.000-07:00

I'LL BE YOUR SAVIOUR
BUT I'LL ONLY SAVE YOU A LITTLE BIT

I'LL BE YOUR DESTROYER
AND I'LL DESTROY YOU IN LITTLE BITS

WE'RE DARK GREY
WE BOTH DON'T MATTER AT ALL
WE'RE AFRAID TO CARE
WE MEAN WHAT WE THINK,
AND MEAN WHAT WE SAY,
WE WERE BORN AT THE WRONG TIME,
WE'RE BOTH PRODUCTS OF WHAT'S GREY

I W I L L P U L L D O W N T H E S T A R S
A N D P U T T H E M E A C H I N Y O U R M O U T H
I W I L L M A K E Y O U B R I L L I A N T
I W I L L M A K E Y O U S H I N E
I W I L L M A K E Y O U E V E R Y T H I N G Y O U W A N T T O B E
E V E R Y T H I N G , E X C E P T M I N E

I'LL BE YOUR SAVIOUR
AND I'LL SAVE YOU IN SMALL AMOUNTS
I'LL BE YOUR DESTROYER
AND BURN YOU ALIVE
BEFORE YOU HAVE TIME TO SEE
THAT I'M THE ONE WHO'S KILLING YOU
THIS TIME
THIS TIME
THIS TIME IS FOR REAL
I HAVE TO RUN FROM ME

MY WINGS ARE NOT FOR DECORATION
THEY HELP ME FLY
I TOLD YOU TO RUN FROM ME
BEFORE I BURNED YOU ALIVE

AND NOW YOU'RE ON FIRE
WHILE ALL THAT I HAVE FOR YOU
IS EVERY BIT OF DESIRE
TO MAKE YOU MINE

AND NOW WE'RE ON FIRE
WE'RE NOTHING MORE THAN BONES
WE'RE SAVIOURS FOR EACH OTHER
WHILE DESTROYING EVERYTHING WE'VE KNOWN

FEEL THIS ALIVE

2009-05-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

SALVATOR ROSA
- ALLEGORY OF FORTUNE
FROM THE DESCRIPTION AT THE GETTY MUSEUM, LOS ANGELES;

A personification of Fortune bestows symbols of wealth, status, and power on dumb animals who neither need nor deserve them. Fortune is usually represented with a blindfold, but Salvator Rosa showed her fully aware of her favors. Similarly, the cornucopia is usually shown facing upward; by depicting it overturned, Rosa expressed reckless extravagance.

The beasts, portrayed with stark realism, trample the attributes of art and learning, including books and a palette. Draped in the cardinal red of the Catholic Church, an ass shields an owl, the symbol for wisdom, from the light. Bitter over his exclusion from papal patronage, Rosa included personal references: a book bearing his monogram and a pig stepping on a rose, which alludes to his name.

As a satire of Pope Alexander VII's nepotistic artistic patronage, this painting nearly sent Rosa to prison. After showing it privately in his studio, he flagrantly disregarded all advice and exhibited it publicly in the Pantheon in 1659. Allegory of Fortune aroused such a furor that only intervention by the pope's brother saved his life.

THE LAST SUPPER

2009-05-27T20:20:00.000-07:00

"GOOD MORNING, PIG.
WHAT'S ON YOUR PLATE TODAY?"

"WELL, SINCE YOU ASK,
I HAVE MY WHOLE DAY PLANNED.

FIRST, I'LL SIT RIGHT HERE,
WITH MY FORK ON THE TABLE.
I'LL CUT OUT YOUR LUNGS,
AND EAT THEM BOTH WITH MY HANDS.

I'LL SPIT OUT THE PARTS THAT DON'T MATTER,
AND MAKE A WONDERFUL MESS OF THINGS,
UNTIL I'VE EATEN YOUR WHOLE BODY,
AND CHEWED ON EVERYTHING THAT BLEEDS.

I'LL END WITH YOUR HEART,
WHICH TODAY HAS BEEN FILLED TO THE BRIM,
I EAT FOR PLEASURE, NOT FOR MEASURE.
SO PLEASE PASS ME YOUR LIMBS."

"BUT I'M SO LOVELY AND SOFT,
AND HARDLY WORTH THE CHEW.
YOU'LL BE DONE WITH ME,
BEFORE I HAVE TIME TO ENTERTAIN,
TO PLEASE, TO THANK YOU."

"MY, MY, MY. WHAT MANNERS YOU HAVE,
YOU'RE SO POLITE AND GENUINE!
YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL SO GUILTY,
BEFORE I'VE HAD TIME TO ENJOY,
TO DINE, TO SIN!

THE WORST PARTS OF ME ARE HUNGRY,
THEY ARE DYING TO BE FED.
THE BETTER PARTS OF ME ARE TIRED,
WANDERING THE STREETS,
BEGGING FOR A LITTLE BREAD.

I'M A GLUTTON, YOU SEE.
I'VE BEEN LOOKING AND LOOKING,
TRYING TO FIND WHAT MAKES ME UNIQUE.
I TAKE AND TAKE AND TAKE,
AND HAVE NOTHING MUCH TO GIVE.
I'M MORE HUNGRY FOR ANYTHING
THAN TO EAT FOR HUNGER'S SAKE.

AND NOW I SEE I'VE BEEN TRICKED.
I'VE BEEN MISLED AND SWINDLED.
I THOUGHT I WAS DOING A GREAT THING,
BY PUTTING YOU ON MY PLATE.

NOW I SEE THAT I'VE BEEN GREEDY,
I'VE BEEN A WHORE AND TOO HUNGRY.
I KNOW I'VE BEEN DOING AN AWFUL THING,
EATING AND GAINING ALL OF THIS WEIGHT."

"IT'S QUITE ALRIGHT, SIR.
BECAUSE I'VE BEEN KEEPING SOMETHING FROM YOU.
I KNOW I'M MUCH TOO SWEET, MORESO THAN HONEY,
AND I KNOW YOUR TONGUE IS BITTER,
LOOKING FOR MEAT, FOR MARROW, FOR BONE, FOR FLESH.
BUT MY TASTE IS RATHER EXQUISITE,
IT'S NOT YOUR APPETITE, BUT YOUR LOVE I CAN QUENCH.

I HAVE A HEART OF DIAMONDS,
THAT SPARKLES AND GLOWS.
AND IF YOU HADN'T EATEN IT,
WOULD HAVE BEEN FED TO THE CROWS.

SO PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE,
HAVE AS MUCH AS YOU LIKE.
TAKE SECONDS AND THIRDS,
BECAUSE WE EAT TOGETHER,
TONIGHT."

BE SAD

2009-05-10T22:59:00.000-07:00

THE BLACK HEART PROCESSION.
A HEART THE SIZE OF A HORSE.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU ARE NOT

2009-05-10T22:33:00.000-07:00

BE MINDFUL
AND STOP BEING CAREFUL

EVERY WORD THAT LEAVES YOUR MOUTH IS WHAT YOU ARE
AND EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE

SO THINK SOME
AND CARE A LITTLE MORE
BE MINDFUL OF WHO YOU ARE

STOP REPEATING
AND REPEATING
AND REHEARSING
AND REPEATING
AND REAPREATING
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AND REPEATINNG
ANDFREHRADINGS
AND REHEARSSTINGS
AND REPRPEAPATING
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REPEATING
EREAPTING
POREINTANG
PORTIONING
RECLYCLING
REPERATING
REREDUCING
REPEATING
RERECITING
RERWARDING
REPSOITIONING
RECOLOECTING
REPEATING
AND REAPTAING
ANDND AND REPAING
REPETAING
ADDND
ADNND
AND /OR
OR
OR
OR
START
DYING.

INHERITANCE

2009-05-03T21:47:00.000-07:00

I CARE WITHOUT CARING
AND I LOVE WITHOUT LOVING.

YOU'LL NEVER NOTICE ME
BUT YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME.

I HAVE IT ALL OVER MY FACE,
AND ALL OVER MY HANDS,
IT'S HOT OUT OF MY MOUTH,
FILLING MY HEART WITH SAND.

THERE IS NO MIRACLE HERE.
NO PROMISE FOR SOMETHING BETTER.
THERE IS NOTHING I CANNOT RUIN,
NOTHING MY TONGUE WON'T REACH,
AND NOTHING MORE
FOR MY THOUGHTS TO TEACH.

I HAVE THE DEVIL IN MY EYES,
WHILE I'M HOLDING ITS HAND.
I'M SCREAMING AT THE DEVIL,
KNEELING BEFORE I STAND.

SO YOU SEE HOW I WORK,
AND HOW MUCH I CARE.
YOU KNOW HOW WELL YOU KNOW ME,
KNOWING I AM THE DEVIL'S HEIR.

SO LOOK RIGHT AT ME,
LOOKING DOWN AND FAR PAST ME.
BE GLAD YOU'LL NEVER KNOW ME,
BECAUSE I'LL RUIN YOUR CARE.

FULL OF LIFE

2009-03-08T18:33:00.000-07:00

I AM HALF NATIVE AMERICAN.

I AM HALF NAVAJO.

AND TO BE HONEST, IT IS THAT EXACT HALF OF ME THAT I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO UNDERSTAND.

I DO FIND IT MAGICAL.

AND MYSTERIOUS.

AND RATHER SPECIAL.

AND UNIQUE.

BUT AGAIN, I FEEL RATHER DISCONNECTED FROM ALL OF THAT.

IT, HOWEVER, RUNS IN MY VEINS.

EVERY DROP OF BLOOD COMES OUT HALF UNDERSTOOD AND COMPLETELY MISUNDERSTOOD.

AND WHAT IS MORE ODD,

IS THAT I FIND IT JUST AS TRAGIC AS MOST OF THE CULTURE HAS BECOME.

TRAGIC THAT I AM DEFINED BY SOMETHING I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT.

TRAGIC THAT I AM ASSOCIATED AT FACE VALUE WHAT NO ONE

ELSE KNOWS ANYTHING ABOUT.

HERE'S A SMALL LIST OF THE THINGS I HAVE OVER MY HEAD:

CHIEF

INDIAN

ALCOHOL

RESERVATIONS

CASINOS

DOGS WITHOUT HOMES

CARS IN YOUR FRONT YARD

DRUNKS

HEAVY METAL

PEYOTE

FEATHERS

RAIN DANCING

TEEPEES

DRINKING

TAX-FREE LIVING

GOVERNMENT MONEY

GOVERNMENT MONEY FOR DRINKING

HAU (AS IN 'HELLO')

REDSKIN

SQUAWS

DREAMCATCHERS

FRY BREAD

DRINKING

ALL OF THIS TO DEFINE ME,

BUT NONE OF IT DEFINES ME.

AND I CAN GUARANTEE YOU,

I HAVE HAD EACH OF THESE BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION RATHER FREQUENTLY DURING MY LIFE.

AND IT HAS BEEN ODD FOR ME,

HAVING BEEN RAISED COMPLETELY SEPARATE OF THE CULTURE,

WITH MY PARENTS HAVING BEEN DIVORCED SINCE I WAS 3,

HAVING NO CONTACT WITH MY NATIVE RELATIVES,

AND CERTAINLY NO CONTACT WITH MY FATHER,

AND NOT REALLY UNDERSTANDING WHERE I CAME FROM,

OR HOW I WAS DIFFERENT,

ONLY A LITTLE MORE TAN,

A LITTLE MORE WEATHERED,

BUT HAVE OTHERS AROUND ME,

HEAR MY NAME,

READ MY NAME,

AND SEE MY FACE,

AND LET ME IN ON THEIR LITTLE JOKES,

THEIR LITTLE QUALMS,

THEIR EASY JABS,

THEIR EASY WORDS,

THEIR QUICK WIT,

REGARDING SOMETHING WE BOTH DON'T UNDERSTAND.

HERE IS ONE PERSON,

THE ONLY ONE I HAVE MET,

THAT CAN SHARE MY PERSPECTIVE,

AND CAN PAINT WHAT I FEEL,

AND THOUGH WE HAVE NEVER MET,

IS THE ONE PERSON I FEEL,

CAN TOTALLY UNDERSTAND MY OTHER HALF.

(BRAD KAHLHAMER)

YOU CAN BE BOUGHT

2008-12-07T20:30:00.000-08:00

EVERYONE HAS THEIR PRICE.
YOU HAVE YOUR PRICE.
AND ALL I, OR ANYONE, HAS TO DO
IS FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS.

  1. $$$
  2. ATTENTION
  3. AUTHORITY
  4. POSSESSION
  5. LOVE
  6. FASHION
  7. FAME
  8. PROMISE
  9. PITY
10. FEAR

YOU CAN BE BOUGHT AND WE ALL HAVE OUR HANDS IN OUR POCKETS.

SMILE INTO THE CAMERA.

PLACE YOUR BETS.

SIGN HERE.

TELL US, BOSS.

READ, REMEMBER, REPEAT.

OR WRITE, TEASE, AND PRETEND.

DO IT, YOU FOOL.

THIS IS YOUR LEGACY.

THIS IS WHO YOU ARE.

THIS IS WHY YOU WERE BORN.

THIS IS YOUR TIME TO SHINE, LITTLE STAR.

SELL YOURSELF.

IDENTITY

2008-11-25T18:48:00.000-08:00

IT SEEMS I DON'T QUITE KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE.

IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T KNOW WHO I WANT TO BE.

IT'S THAT I WANT TO BE TOO MANY THINGS.

DO TOO MANY THINGS.

BECOME TOO MANY THINGS.

I WANT TO BE A MUSICIAN.

I WANT TO BE A GRAPHIC DESIGNER.

I WANT TO BE A REAL ESTATE DEVELOPER.

I WANT TO BE A WORLD TRAVELER.

I WANT TO BE A SERVANT.

I WANT TO BE A VAMPIRE.

I WANT TO BE AN ARC WELDER.

I WANT TO BE A BOW HUNTER.

I WANT TO BE A FURNITURE DESIGNER.

I WANT TO BE A FASHION DESIGNER.

I WANT TO BE A PHILANTHROPIST.

I WANT TO BE A LOVER.

I WANT TO BE LIKE MY GRANDFATHER.

MAYBE YOU COULD HELP ME WITH MY RESUME A BIT? YEAH?

UNEQUALED

2008-11-24T17:44:00.000-08:00

MY FAVORITE ARTIST OF MY LIFE.

TO SOME, IT MIGHT SEEM CLICHE.

TO SOME, IT MIGHT SEEM ORDINARY.

TO SOME, IT MIGHT SEEM EXPECTED.

BUT I CAN BET YOU THAT THEY HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING OF HIS WITH THEIR OWN EYES.

THE FIRST, ACTUALLY, WAS STARRY NIGHT IN NEW YORK, NOT ALL THAT LONG AGO.

AND WHILE HIS REPUTATION MIGHT PRECEDE HIS WORK,

HE TRULY WAS A MADMAN.

AND AS ALIVE AS HIS PANTINGS CAN BE,X RAY IMAGES ACTUALLY SHOW MORE THAN ONE PAINTING ON THE SAME CANVAS.

EVERYTHING THAT IS ALIVE HAS MORE THAN WHAT IS ON THE SURFACE.

SENSE

2008-11-23T20:28:00.000-08:00

GOD IN HIS WISDOM KILLS.

AND YOU ARE HEADED TO HEAVEN.

AND HELL.

AND CAN NOT SAVE YOURSELF.

SO MAKE THE MOST OF IT.

MAKE THE MOST OF ALL YOU CAN.

THIS IS ALL YOU HAVE.

THIS IS ALL THAT YOU ARE.

THIS IS ALL THAT YOU CAN DO.

THIS IS ALL YOU WILL EVER FEEL.

THIS IS ALL YOU WILL EVER BE.

THIS IS ALL YOU WILL EVER KNOW.

THIS IS ALL OF IT.